a change of plans...

This past month has brought a HUGE range of emotions to our family.  Let me start by saying we can't wait to have our family grow.  At the same time we feel a huge burden to all of the kids that aren't able to be with their own mom's and dad's for whatever reason.  We have been licensed foster parents for a few months now.  We have been waiting.  Waiting for a phone call.  Then, out of the blue we had a new opportunity literally almost fall in our laps.  It was a baby.  A new precious, unborn baby.  There's so many stories that lye with this...too many to tell.  After weeks of considering, praying and thinking we decided to start to get paperwork and official meetings started.  As soon as it started...it ended.  We weren't bitter.  Sad, yes, but that's ok.  We were so excited.  However, we understand.  We too are parents.  We witnessed the beautiful creation of a child before our eyes.  We get it.  Now we have a change of plans...and we can't wait!

Our hearts feel so many emotions.  Excitement, anxiousness, scared, determination, terrified, love, hope, and peace.  It isn't what we planned.  It is stretching us out of our comfort zone.  More than what we were already at.  We will be growing as a family.  A lot sooner than what we had thought. With more than we thought.  In a few short days we will be welcoming two new kiddos into our home.  My heart aches for them.  For the many separations that they have faced way too young.  Too much life in too short of time.  I can't wait to welcome them into our home.  To give them a place to seek refuge, rest and growth.  I pray for their parents.  I pray that they will become a better person, as we all need to become more of.  

We have started to plan and prepare.  I don't think we will ever be really ready.  A bunk bed has been set up, kiddo blankets have been picked out and room arrangements changed around.  This will be an adjustment.  We have a 3 year old, and we will be sending two kids off to school for our first time, and they won't be our own.  I'm nervous about the transition.  School starts in a few short days, and we will be welcoming them in our home in just a few short days too.  That's a lot.  That's a lot of change for everyone.  That's a TON of change for them!  Until then, I will continue to run around like crazy and prepare. Organizing our house to fit 5.  5.  Yes, I said 5.